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"How many days disappear? When you look in the mirror, so how do you choose?"
Absolutely (Story of a Girl) (Voltage #1)
Ouch.
Dude, wasn’t Bloodsport one hell of a weekend? For that being my first Marquee Event I was involved in as a member of the EAW roster, it was definitely an eye-opener for what is to come when we’re talkin' about the remainder of the season. Igon Mordren can hold his head high when it comes to beatin' me; maybe you could even say that he proved his point that I was nothing but a “flippy shit” wrestler, but the thing that he’s just going to have to come to grips with… is that I’m still here! For as much as he would like to rid the company of people like me, I still have a pulse; I’m alive and kickin'. So no matter if he comes back for seconds or goes on to handle whatever problem that he has on his hands right now, I hope he knows that he’s never going to win in that aspect. Now, as for me? I can’t exactly tell you what’s next for Avril Williams. I know Territorial Invasion is coming around, and a lot of people are excited to get the opportunity to rep their brand’s colors, but the one thing that I’m not going to do is set high expectations for myself and end up being disappointed at the result. I was gifted with the opportunity to compete in one of the best companies in the world, and I’m not going to let it slip. I’m here to have fun and go with the flow, and whatever ends up comin' out of it, I am more than happy to take on regardless of the size. Even though I got my chest caved in a week ago, what happened at Bloodsport was one of the most excitin' times of my life. I never felt so alive being in a wrestling ring as I did then, and I’m lookin' to recapture that lightning. Not only that, I’m lookin' to come back as strong as ever. I want to prove that I belong here, that I’m not just another pretty face, that I can make a substantial impact around here, and I feel like, in my honest opinion, what I just did out there showed me that I am more than capable of that; I just need to keep puttin' my heart into it. I need to walk out there every single week and give my 100%, no expectations, and be that light in the dark that all my adoring fans expect me to be, because they didn’t cheer me on from skateboarding to wrestling to watch me fall flat on my ass- hell no. You can throw whatever you want at me, but I’m going to get back up, dust myself off, and keep it pushin'. And I understand that there’s some tough competition out there, but I’m going to give all of them a warning right now that I’m not just someone who can be pushed around and treated like I’m nobody.
And yes, that goes for you too, Reylin.
Look, I know you’ve got no personal grudge with me over anything. What happened at Bloodsport was purely a means of makin' a statement, and maybe a part of me respects that. If I know something for certain, I know that your issues are going to lie with the man whose parade that you just rained on, and frankly, that’s not my problem. But what doesn’t change is the fact that I am going to be your first match in this company. And regardless of how I feel, regardless of how you feel, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m not going to serve as a welcoming mat for you on Sunday Night Voltage. Nah, imma show you exactly the type of shit that you’ve gotten yourself into and hope that you’re able to swim with the sharks. I mean, you got the confidence to show for it already, don’t you? If you didn’t, then you would’ve done things the traditional way. You would’ve walked through the door just like anyone else and wanted to make an appearance on any other Voltage, but you decided to take the biggest stage possible. You arrived on Bloodsport and showed people that you weren’t playin' games. But at the same time, even if I can be impressed with all of that, we have to take off the rose-colored glasses for a moment. We have to excuse the honeymoon period of your arrival and start being realistic with ourselves… You have to be able to back that up. Now, can I really answer that for certain when it comes to you? No. But can you answer that for yourself…? Also no. And you can be as confident as you want, but also be realistic at the same time, because this is not forgettin' the fact that this will be your second week with the company. Now, in my personal opinion, I learned just how quickly everything can change on a dime if you’re not careful. This business has a habit of giving newcomers a reality check, like what just happened to me this past weekend; it wasn’t pretty. You may just think that this is a place where you can just come in and run roughshod on whoever you please, but I wish it were all sunshine and rainbows like it was made out to be. Who knows, maybe you shoot up and have this meteoric rise that you promise off the back of a pretty successful debut, but we’ve seen the example of how many people that has happened for, and that’s few and far between. You’re really going to have to be something special, and do you believe, Reylin, that you’re something special…?
Guess you just gotta answer that yourself.
The biggest mistake that you could have made was saying that this isn’t ideal for either of us, but why wouldn’t it be? Isn’t this what we both want? As far as I’m concerned, you’re standing across from me as competition. Now I can be buddy-buddy with you, or I can face the facts and say that you’re coming after the same things that I might end up gunning for in the near future. Regardless of how you spin it, we’re gonna be in eachother’s way. And I’m not gonna be so kind and forgiving of you when I pin your shoulders to the mat for the three, because trust me, that is something that I am more than open to doing, especially considering I’m coming off a cold, hard defeat. You immediately try to differentiate yourself from the rest of the pack; you set yourself apart by saying that you’re the “predator,” and not everyone can be the prey… but who said that you were? Is this something that was self-ordained? Something that you tell yourself in order to validate everything that you wish to be for this place? I’d be more than happy to give you the respect that you deserve, as I’ve already done throughout the duration of this video, but at the same time, we’re going to have to face the truth and not just live in the words that we say about ourselves. The difference between you and me is that I’m a little more honest with myself; I’m able to admit that I’m not there yet, and that’s fine, because that’s a part of the journey. But you, on the otherhand think that you can just waltz on in here and skip the line just because you said so, and that’s exactly where you’re going to end up failing. It may not be to me; it may be to Igon once he gets his hands on you, or quite literally anyone else in this company with functioning brain cells. The fact is you’re going to have to pull your head out of the clouds and realize that you’re starting at the bottom like the rest of us. Season 20 called for an influx of talent to walk through these doors, each respectively hungry for an opportunity to make an impact. I’ve had my share of facing people like that, and I don’t doubt that you’re going to end up facing that challenge yourself, but can you really say that it’s something that you prepared for? Better yet, are you capable of backing up your words that you’re going to discard them with the ease that you claim that you’re going to discard them with? Tough chance, buckeroo. Right now, though, all I can say is that I’m a woman with a purpose, and my purpose is to jump back on that skateboard and go down the half pipe. Like it or not, I’m still here, I’m still fightin', and I’m really, reallyyyyyy hoping that Voltage this weekend comes with a W for Av. It coming at your expense is going to be a tough pill to swallow, Reylin, but unfortunately… you’re just going to have to #dealwithit. You’ll always get another opportunity!
