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Standing alone in your own agenda, or perhaps, standing alongside other Elitists you yourself believe to be delusional - your own worst enemies - all due to the fact that you have developed an obsessive and para-social grudge against me, the catalyst of which being… Jamie O’Hara handing down his moniker to me? You’ve decided I’m a fanboy yet his name is in YOUR MOUTH more than it is mine. You’ve decided I look up to him yet he clouds YOUR MIND more than he does mine.

Moving on.


It may seem like you have unfinished business with Michael Machina. If I can reall, the two of you faced off in a no-contest a few weeks ago, right? Nothing more than two gladiators, fighting to see who can topple the other one. Sometimes, fights like that get intense. Sometimes, you’ll tend to ignore all the background noise around you and focus on that. It was unfinished business. Nothing got solved in the match up. Could have Michael Machina gotten another impressive victory over a former World Champion? Could Limmy Monghan get the victory over the current World Champion? It’s what makes it such an enticing match to hopefully run back before this season ends. Perhaps, it could happen in Barcelona? Michael Machina. Limmy Monghan. EAW World Championship at Pain for Pride. Not going to lie - it would be a great match up. It would be something new, refreshing, not the same old names that find their names plaster on the card year after year after year. Maybe that's why I like it. EAW is in the mood for something new. It wants something interesting and unpredictable. People want to watch an EAW product and feel something. They don’t want to rewatch the same product over and over again. Limmy Monaghan in the main event? Never happened. KASAI in the main event? Never happened. Cameron Ella Ava in the main event? Well, there’s always a first time for everything. I look at the ‘Ultimate X’ and it could be an opportunity to lead to that bigger picture. It could be the one thing that stands in my way of making that dream become a reality. As you pointed out, Limmy, winning ‘Ultimate X’ is a catalyst for all of that. To your inevitable second World title reign. Your third. Your fourth. Fuck it, maybe your tenth. It could be the catalyst for a lot of things that have yet to happen in your future. At the same time, every little detail that tends to happen in our lives could be considered a catalyst, no? Take myself for example, if Jamie didn’t end the career of that Irish cunt, I probably wouldn’t have been wrapped in his bullshit leading to Pain for Pride 9. Our paths would have gone in opposite directions. I probably would have been in something like Cash in the Vault. When that did happen, a domino effect happened and lo and behold: everything you see standing across me. If we want things a bit more professional wise, if I would have considered to part take Ryan Adams and the whole One Percent opportunity at the Draft Show, it probably would have delayed the betrayal, would have delayed the loss of those Unified Tag Team Championships and I wouldn’t have dealt with the abuse and torment that Ryan put me through for months. I probably wouldn’t have gotten a fraction of the treatment that I did. I probably wouldn’t have my mother end up the way she was. Camille wouldn’t have found herself back on the shelf with a concussion after helping me out with Liquid Swordz. Candice wouldn’t probably be so hesitant to sign her name on the dotted line.
While the ‘Ultimate X’ would be a catalyst for every impressive milestone and accomplishment that you’ll no doubt get in your future, if it’s meant to be, it will happen regardless. Do you believe in fate, Limmy? Do you believe in “everything happening for a reason?” Do you believe in the fact that one thing could lead to another thing? Now, I’m not going to tell you to save your energy for something dumb like Grand Rampage. I’m not going to tell you to not fight for this opportunity. You are going to fight. You are going to fight to secure your future. Just like everyone is going to fight for a chance to secure this future. We’re almost embarking on one of the most dangerous timings to get an opportunity of the season. Winning this match saves you the chance of having to face twenty-nine other men and women for a chance to headline Pain for Pride. Winning this match provides you with a bit more security that you can just relax quite a bit. Maybe, pop a bottle of beer open and develop those alcoholic tendencies like your old man and talk about how life is so great for the two of you. I mean, that would be nice, right? Maybe, one of these days the two of you can sit down, talk, maybe, you’ll have the EAW World Championship right next to you. Let all the memories with the two of you reflow back to your brains. Maybe, you’ll crack a laugh because everything seemed to work out for you - just like it did for him - all of those years ago. Every amount of trial and tribulations led to this point of your career. There’s no doubt that we’re due for another Limmy Monaghan title reign. There’s no doubt that the world will be itching for another reign from you. At the same time, it’s been way too fucking long since I’ve been at the pinnacle. It felt nice to show Hathaway the Hardcore Championship backstage at Pain for Pride. It would be nicer to show him a World Championship. Another constant reminder that motherhood didn’t stop me. Motherhood has never slowed me down in the long run. It may have been brief, but my will, my determination, my desire to step back into the ring pushed me further into that goal. I can’t find myself stopping. Not yet, Limmy. You, just like me, would be deserving of such a history-making feat. I don’t hold animosity towards you. I don’t hate you. I want you to get to that next level. I want you to continue to push yourself, but you have time. I can make bold claims like I want to be World Champion and headline Pain for Pride in the next two years, but who says that I have two years to spare? Who says that I have one year? Who says that I have six months? Who says that I have until Pain for Pride?
I’m not expecting you to step aside. I’m not expecting you to feel an ounce of sympathy, but it’s just one of those thoughts that I find lingering in my mind. Somedays, I wonder how much time I truly have until my body tells me “no?” I find myself wondering if Shock Value will be the night where it all gives out? Will it be Grand Rampage? Will it be Pain for Pride? Or do I underestimate the amount of time I truly have? But, I wrestle like it’s my last match. That’s something that I have been looking to do - especially, when a hot opportunity is one the line. There’s no other opportunity like this. There is no other Elitist like Cameron Ella Ava. Everyone can try to send me crashing to the ground and I’ll find my way back up, each and every time.
We’ve been through this same song and dance, Ryan.
But, just like always, I’ll be the bigger person around here.
I am SO sorry that Limmy Monaghan trusts me! I am SO sorry that Limmy Monaghan looks at me as ¼ friend, ¼ inspiration, ¼ parent, ¼ ally. I mean, HOW DARE Limmy Monaghan have a sense of trust within me? You know, Ryan? He could choose better friends. He could choose better people to trust. If I can, I would suggest... you! You are loyal! You would never stab anyone in the back! You would never turn your back at anyone after they wouldn’t accept your opportunity! You would never put anyone through an amount of anguish! You don’t seem to be the guy to want to “death, destruction and rape” anyone in your life! Just an amazing, credible, loyal, upstanding fellow, who would do no wrong –
Oh wait - YOU HAVE! Ryan, you don't go around and try to turn people against me. Especially, when you have a TON of Elitists in this match who would give anything to want to beat your ass, fold your shriveled up body like an accordion and use it as a ladder to help them up and retrieve that briefcase. By the sound of things, that might be the most enticing thing to come out of this match. While you had no issues with talking about the Answers World Championship from my burned up, bleeding body, I won’t have any issues with using your dead carcass to wipe my feet from all the oil, sweat and blood that the match will reproduce. Maybe, I’ll use it as a rug and stand on top of it, getting some good photos of me with the briefcase. After all, I always wanted to win one of these. But, that plan never came to furiton. Unfortunately, life had other plans for me. Life was never meant to be easy with someone like me. There were always meant to be obstacles that plagued my life. There were always meant to be certain factors (you) that would make my quest to glory a bit more difficult than most. My difficulty to become the history-maker, difference-maker that I am, has led to people having a much easier time. A few of them, undeserving, but I digress. But, that’s the path that I’ve taken. Mostly because there is no one who would be able to take that level of physical and mental angush than me. There is no one who was willing to take the abuse that you threw in my direction. There was no one who was willing to be that mental punching bag and find themselves wrapped in months worth of mental games at your hands. This is what I kind of meant when I told Bethany about “contributions” to this company. I mentioned that I’ll be the one to say something so controversal and yet, so right, so here I am: I’m the reason why EAW didn’t die when you had a bipolar acoholic as chariman. I’m the reason why the EAW Board of Directors were to have that peaceful (peaceful as it can get) transition of power. Maybe, this goes hand-in-hand with the conversation that I was having with Limmy Monaghan a bit earlier - the whole topic with certain details being considered a catalyst for other things. Because imagine, Ryan, imagine, if I allowed for this company to die in 2014? Or was it 2015? Honestly, I don’t give a fuck, but imagine, if I did.
Imagine a world where Cameron Ella Ava KILLED EAW?
I know that people are going to look at that quote and think I’m on crack and think that I have completely lost it here. But, I mean, that’s the type of power that some of you people seem to think that I had. When in reality, I was nothing more than a 5 '6, 125 pound, twenty-three year old from Los Angeles, who wanted nothing more than to live out her dream. She didn’t sign up for any of this shit. She didn’t sign up for the life that she had. That ended up being her burden when it shouldn’t have been. I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask for my relationship to be exploited in front of the world. I didn’t ask to find everyone pointing their guns at me - wondering how I let everything happen. I didn’t ask to be labeled as the villain when actual villains were roaming around backstage, leading the mob. I didn’t ask myself to be in your crosshairs, but you took it within yourself to do that, Ryan. I wish you could have just let me vacate those Unified Tag Team Championships instead of playing Gaylactus to my Captain Marvel. I wish that you could have just left me alone because you were my catalyst to a lot of issues that I had then and currently, find myself dealing with now. I’m a lot better than I was then, but I find this bitter piece in my heart that I will always have for you, Ryan. You can change your identity and absorb yourself into whatever persona that you decided to absorb yourself into this week, but I know you, Ryan. I know exactly for the monster that you are. Limmy, Bethany, KASAI - they don’t know you like I know you. You winning ‘Ultimate X’ would be the biggest mistake that any gods could make in this match. You winning ‘Ultimate X’ would be a travesty. I’m not going to dish out the same shit that Bethany tried to spew at your direction. I mean, it’s the same shit that is thrown at me. Trust me, I don’t want to sound like a broken record. But, crossing paths with you was one of the worst things to happen to me. You can parade around and be like: “I’m a new man! I’m married! I have three babies! Look at this, kewt family photo that I took this Christmas in Cabo!” But, I don’t believe it for one bit. A leopard never changes its spots. While you’re trying to paint me as someone who would stab someone in the back, you are projecting your own insecurities onto someone else. I’m not stupid. Limmy is not stupid. Limmy is going to do what’s best for Limmy. I am going to do what’s best for me. Meanwhile, I am not the first, nor the last time, that you’ll be able to manipulate and fool someone into a false sense of security. I know for a fact that it’s not going to happen to me again. I’m not going to put anyone else through that. I’ve made it clear in the past, if I wanted to turn my back on you, I’d do it to your face. I wouldn’t do that to your back. Just like you did. Remember, Ryan? I should have been smarter on who I can trust. But, at the same time, you should have been smarter on who you shouldn’t have messed with. We’ll continue to find ourselves doing this same song and dance a billion times over, Ryan. Until someone gives out. You would do the world a favor if it was you, but it’s a suggestion! I’ve realized that if I want to get something done, I’ll have to do it myself!