The Rebirth of Jamie Cross
Chapter 01, Page 01.
Chapter 01, Page 01.
Sitting at a slick black desk, dressed in a messy white dress, her brownish hair put into a bun and eyeliner falling down her eyes, her nails painted a sparkling black, looking as destroyed as possible. Laying in front of her on the office desk is a journal—one with no bends or tears, seemingly brand new. With a Captain America-themed pen sitting right next to it. She takes a few moments before picking up the pen and opening the journal to the very first page, Preparing to Write.
She takes another moment before putting pen to paper and starting to write down her thoughts. But we don't see her speaking like in a normal video; we hear her voice echo the sounds of the video. With a stressed tone in her voice, reading each and every word on the page as she writes them, all we see is a first-person view of her handwriting.
"Allow me to introduce myself, My name is Jamie Cross. I'm a professional wrestler born and raised in Chicago, IL. Growing up, I only wanted to do two things with my life: be an Avenger and be a professional wrestler. Luckily, one of those two seemingly impossible goals came to life at a very young age when I began training to become a professional wrestler. Growing up in my household made life seem easy. Everything went my way as a kid. If there was a new toy, I owned it. If there was a new movie in the theaters, I saw it. Some would call it being spoiled, and you're probably right. It never clicked to me that maybe life isn't all that fair. Maybe reality isn't as fun and easy as it was as a kid. Long story short, I took my platforms for granted. Don't get me wrong. Being spoiled as a child doesn't mean I didn't know what hard work and dedication were; I very much understood. Almost too well... One night, my mother was driving me to my training school when the car swerved and crashed, causing my mother to pass away on impact. Something about that day never clicked with me. Was I upset? Of course. Heartbroken? Obviously. But the fact that she was just gone never clicked; I still went to training that night. My trainer let me sleep inside the ring for as long as I needed, and I did. I basically lived inside a professional wrestling ring for months of my teenage years. Because no matter what I lost, I couldn't lose professional wrestling; I couldn't lose the only realistic thing keeping me on this planet...
Last year, I reached the pinnacle of my professional wrestling career, officially earning an Elite Answers Wrestling contract to join the company as a full-time competitor. Now, most kids dream of winning championships or main events like Pain for Pride. While they are realistic goals, something that quickly becomes a goal as you get older is earning a mainstream contract. Earning that contract meant the entire world to me. It showed me that all my hard work and dedication to this sport were finally paying off, and I was finally going to be exposed to fans worldwide for who I really am and show the entire world. Fans and management included that Jamie Cross was the future of not only Elite Answers Wrestling but professional wrestling entirely. But of course, something always has to go wrong, right? At the time when I first signed up with EAW, there was a rush of talent entering and leaving the scene quicker than you can place a fast food order. It was scary, not because I didn't think I was good enough, but because I didn't want to join the list of talent who were only considered signed talent for a flash in the pain. The last thing I wanted to do was be on the independents as the "Ex EAW Superstar" person who advertised for shows, and no one knows who I am. I wanted to put myself as high on the card as I possibly could, as quickly as I could. And for a while, it was working. My name was everywhere. My name was one you couldn't escape when watching Dynasty or reading what happened on Dynasty. Everyone saw the potential I had and wanted to see me run the course with it. Management included. And at the time, I thought I did... I walked into the biggest match of my career at Pain for Pride against Lexi and one of my closest friends, Usagi Senshi. And walked out victorious. Possibly the ultimate sign of growth, or the ultimate sign of showing that I was going to be the next top female in EAW...
But something about winning at Pain for Pride was maybe too much for my brain to understand. Season 16 had come and gone, and by the time Season 17 came around, I had been drafted to Voltage. Now, don't get me wrong. Dynasty treated me well, and I loved it with every fiber of my being. But as an outside observer prior to being an employee, Voltage was the place I wanted to take over. It was the place I wanted to showcase my talent and dominate... But it seemed as if I did anything but that. I accepted a deathmatch against Milli Banks for Bloodsport and, in return, had my girlfriend leave me. I lost to Milli, losing yet another championship match, and no matter how hard I "tried," I couldn't seem to pick the steam back up where I left it at Pain for Pride.
Have you ever had so many people ask you the exact same question over and over again? I'm sure you have; I did too. Every single day, all I read were comments about how I wasn't the real Jamie Cross and how, in season 17, Jamie Cross was a fraud compared to the hard-working Marvel fangirl I was in season 16. But for some reason, these comments never clicked. Much like anything else that never went my way, I didn't know how to accept it. I shrugged it off and continued on my journey, until one day my journey came to a complete stop and Elite Answers Wrestling sent me home.
At first, I was bitter; I felt betrayed and wanted to do anything in my power to tear EAW down brick by brick. But as the minutes passed, each hour rang through, and each day came to an end. I realized it's not their fault. It was my fault... I got so attached to the idea of just showing up to work in the hopes of keeping my job that I didn't bother trying enough or caring enough to make my job mean something. I just didn't want to be the person everyone forgot about. Each and every day at home, locked away, was a learning curve. I learned who I am, but more importantly, who I was, not only weeks or months ago... But last season, who was the Jamie Cross that everyone wanted to see really was, she was a Marvel fangirl with hopes and dreams of making it to the very top of this company. And put in any amount of work it took to get herself there. Something I wouldn't have done months ago on Voltage.
If you thought Jamie Cross was a dangerous star on the rise in Season 16, just wait until you see what she can do with a pen in her hand, paper in front of her, and an entire story to finish writing—a story about how she fixes herself and her childhood dream and takes over Elite Answers wrestling with no rough patches to fix, like before. This time I'm not the side character who plays BFF to Usagi Senshi; this time I play the main character in my own story. And I rewrite my history.
One chapter at a time."
She takes another moment before putting pen to paper and starting to write down her thoughts. But we don't see her speaking like in a normal video; we hear her voice echo the sounds of the video. With a stressed tone in her voice, reading each and every word on the page as she writes them, all we see is a first-person view of her handwriting.
"Allow me to introduce myself, My name is Jamie Cross. I'm a professional wrestler born and raised in Chicago, IL. Growing up, I only wanted to do two things with my life: be an Avenger and be a professional wrestler. Luckily, one of those two seemingly impossible goals came to life at a very young age when I began training to become a professional wrestler. Growing up in my household made life seem easy. Everything went my way as a kid. If there was a new toy, I owned it. If there was a new movie in the theaters, I saw it. Some would call it being spoiled, and you're probably right. It never clicked to me that maybe life isn't all that fair. Maybe reality isn't as fun and easy as it was as a kid. Long story short, I took my platforms for granted. Don't get me wrong. Being spoiled as a child doesn't mean I didn't know what hard work and dedication were; I very much understood. Almost too well... One night, my mother was driving me to my training school when the car swerved and crashed, causing my mother to pass away on impact. Something about that day never clicked with me. Was I upset? Of course. Heartbroken? Obviously. But the fact that she was just gone never clicked; I still went to training that night. My trainer let me sleep inside the ring for as long as I needed, and I did. I basically lived inside a professional wrestling ring for months of my teenage years. Because no matter what I lost, I couldn't lose professional wrestling; I couldn't lose the only realistic thing keeping me on this planet...
Last year, I reached the pinnacle of my professional wrestling career, officially earning an Elite Answers Wrestling contract to join the company as a full-time competitor. Now, most kids dream of winning championships or main events like Pain for Pride. While they are realistic goals, something that quickly becomes a goal as you get older is earning a mainstream contract. Earning that contract meant the entire world to me. It showed me that all my hard work and dedication to this sport were finally paying off, and I was finally going to be exposed to fans worldwide for who I really am and show the entire world. Fans and management included that Jamie Cross was the future of not only Elite Answers Wrestling but professional wrestling entirely. But of course, something always has to go wrong, right? At the time when I first signed up with EAW, there was a rush of talent entering and leaving the scene quicker than you can place a fast food order. It was scary, not because I didn't think I was good enough, but because I didn't want to join the list of talent who were only considered signed talent for a flash in the pain. The last thing I wanted to do was be on the independents as the "Ex EAW Superstar" person who advertised for shows, and no one knows who I am. I wanted to put myself as high on the card as I possibly could, as quickly as I could. And for a while, it was working. My name was everywhere. My name was one you couldn't escape when watching Dynasty or reading what happened on Dynasty. Everyone saw the potential I had and wanted to see me run the course with it. Management included. And at the time, I thought I did... I walked into the biggest match of my career at Pain for Pride against Lexi and one of my closest friends, Usagi Senshi. And walked out victorious. Possibly the ultimate sign of growth, or the ultimate sign of showing that I was going to be the next top female in EAW...
But something about winning at Pain for Pride was maybe too much for my brain to understand. Season 16 had come and gone, and by the time Season 17 came around, I had been drafted to Voltage. Now, don't get me wrong. Dynasty treated me well, and I loved it with every fiber of my being. But as an outside observer prior to being an employee, Voltage was the place I wanted to take over. It was the place I wanted to showcase my talent and dominate... But it seemed as if I did anything but that. I accepted a deathmatch against Milli Banks for Bloodsport and, in return, had my girlfriend leave me. I lost to Milli, losing yet another championship match, and no matter how hard I "tried," I couldn't seem to pick the steam back up where I left it at Pain for Pride.
Have you ever had so many people ask you the exact same question over and over again? I'm sure you have; I did too. Every single day, all I read were comments about how I wasn't the real Jamie Cross and how, in season 17, Jamie Cross was a fraud compared to the hard-working Marvel fangirl I was in season 16. But for some reason, these comments never clicked. Much like anything else that never went my way, I didn't know how to accept it. I shrugged it off and continued on my journey, until one day my journey came to a complete stop and Elite Answers Wrestling sent me home.
At first, I was bitter; I felt betrayed and wanted to do anything in my power to tear EAW down brick by brick. But as the minutes passed, each hour rang through, and each day came to an end. I realized it's not their fault. It was my fault... I got so attached to the idea of just showing up to work in the hopes of keeping my job that I didn't bother trying enough or caring enough to make my job mean something. I just didn't want to be the person everyone forgot about. Each and every day at home, locked away, was a learning curve. I learned who I am, but more importantly, who I was, not only weeks or months ago... But last season, who was the Jamie Cross that everyone wanted to see really was, she was a Marvel fangirl with hopes and dreams of making it to the very top of this company. And put in any amount of work it took to get herself there. Something I wouldn't have done months ago on Voltage.
If you thought Jamie Cross was a dangerous star on the rise in Season 16, just wait until you see what she can do with a pen in her hand, paper in front of her, and an entire story to finish writing—a story about how she fixes herself and her childhood dream and takes over Elite Answers wrestling with no rough patches to fix, like before. This time I'm not the side character who plays BFF to Usagi Senshi; this time I play the main character in my own story. And I rewrite my history.
One chapter at a time."
