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There are a lot of things that come with being a professional wrestler. The rigorous training to keep your physique in check. The mental toll it takes to match the expectations given to you. The pressure of being the best competitor in the field. You know, the nuts and bolts, the fundamentals of what comes with being a part of this dog-eat-dog industry, but what nobody talks about is life on the road. I dedicated a majority of this year, hunkered down in this little New Jersey town with my wife and children, where the only roads that I travelled were only a stone’s throw from my humble abode. Whether it was picking up, or dropping off my kids at school, or going on an ice cream run, or a supermarket haul, the time that I spent commuting wasn’t much, and it paled in comparison to what I have been doing all my life. Since I came back to Elite Answers Wrestling, it never occurred to me how taxing it is on you mentally and physically it is life on the road. I suppose overtime, it became routine to me. The sleepless nights, the performances under jetlag, sometimes we didn’t even have a bed to sleep on, it was all normal to me. There is nothing wrong with that because in this business, it is a necessity to make certain sacrifices to go where you want to go, but what wasn’t told to me in my initial training, is that life on the road creates a blur between your life as a professional wrestler and a human being. My status as an EAW Hall of Famer would be nothing had I not sacrificed those holidays, those birthdays, those highs and lows where I could have been there for my loved ones. The equity that I have built in my portfolio for the past two decades would be blank had I not done that, but that was a foreign concept to me before this year. I was so caught up in the idea of being the Best in the World, this champion, this God of whatever, that I was clueless that making the sacrifices of being that certain individual had a cause and effect to it. I would be raising a championship over my head spectated by millions while my children would be blowing their candles expecting me to be on the other side of that table. I would be showering myself in pyro and champagne while my wife needed a shoulder to cry on. I had a successful career in this business, no doubt about it, but it was at the cost of my wife and children, and on a day meant for gratitude, I am thankful that this year played out the way it did. Funny enough, I have gratitude towards Milli Banks for sidestepping me at Operation: Doomsday, because had I not crashed into that barricade, I would have not gotten that reality check that I needed to realize what is important. It isn’t championships and trophies. It isn't about wins and losses. It isn’t about god complexes and being the best wrestler in the world. It is about being there for your wife and children, and you know what? I was there for my children’s birthdays. I was there to provide support for my wife. I was there as a father, as simple as that. And that gave me a certain level of happiness and gratitude, that I don’t think I was afforded even in my peak here in Elite Answers Wrestling. But, even with all of that said, that still begs the question. Why am I still here? Why am I still choosing to subject myself to life on the road? Why am I still choosing to be absent for my wife and children? I know that I could have been there in these past three months, but I haven’t. I will answer your question with a question. Do you know what makes me, Xander Payne, yours truly, most elated? You might think it would be the EAW World Championship around my waist. You might think that it would be Ryan Wilson’s corpse. You might think it would be smashing Limmy Monaghan or Cameron Ella Ava’s head to a bloody pulp. It’s none of those things. Quite frankly, it has nothing to do with this business. What puts a smile on my face, what helps me sleep at night, what makes me happy… is seeing my wife and children happy.
What I have gotten to know since my return at Operation: Doomsday, there are some people in this company that didn’t want it to be that way. The British Invasion didn’t want my children to be happy, which in turn, they don’t want me to be happy, and that is why they have been subjected to these past couple of months. When I saw my children weeping in tears, unable to be their happy selves, it became a fatherly instinct to ensure that Daryl, Halsey, and Pandora would get their consequence. Do you think that The British Invasion was happy with me? Was Daryl Kinkade happy being screwed out of the EAW Hardcore Championship? Was Pandora Paisley happy having her hands crushed? Were they happy with being screwed out of the Tag Team Turmoil? Were they happy with being upstaged by Xander Payne week after week? I don’t even need to give you the answer because it was written all over their faces, and that gave me the satisfaction that I needed. If you want me to be happy, to live in solitude, that means you don’t believe that my wife and children should be afforded the same, and I will not accept that. I refuse to let anyone believe that my wife and children should live the life they should. The life that I wasn't given when I was a child. The life I wasn’t given when I was on the road. I don’t get how people are still confused on why I am still here. Isn’t that simple? You don’t want me to be happy. I don’t want you to be happy. My business with The British Invasion, despite Daryl Kinkade being somewhat in my way, is considered over, and I am somewhat content with that. I felt like defeating them at Wicked Games would be the last hoorah, the last spit in the face, the last fuck you, the last middle finger, the last laugh, to really rub it in their face that they shouldn’t have done what they did to my kids. But, there is always a but, Limmy Monaghan and Cameron Ella Ava didn’t want that to happen. They both prevented me from my mission of sapping The British Invasion of every single ounce of happiness they had in their bodies, and you know what that means? If you don’t want me to be happy? You don’t want my kids to be the same. You don’t want my wife to be happy. Therefore, we now have a problem. Your mindset aligns with The British Invasion. You don’t want my wife, my children, myself to be happy, and you must be dealt with accordingly. And that is why Limmy Monaghan deserves everything that is coming to him. I whooped his ass in that room. I minced his brains just last week. And I am going to find tons of satisfaction in the one thing that I only set out to do in Edmonton, and that is do everything in my power to ensure that he doesn’t walk out of that Extreme Elimination Chamber with the EAW World Championship. Limmy Monaghan will obtain his happiness when he builds his utopia, but his erratic decisions brought upon a combination of his ego and stupidity, is going to cost him. It’s fine. He had already made humongous progress in building this utopia, but he messed with the wrong man, because that man is now going to rip every wall down, kick every door down, shatter every window and ceiling, and burn the bloody thing to the ground, because if that utopia is the root of all happiness for Limmy Monaghan, then I refuse to let him see it in its final form.
That, of course, is only possible as long as I am around, and sadly, I won’t be around very long because I made a promise to my wife and children that I will be finished at Road To Redemption. Even if someone else in that match prevents me from robbing Limmy Monaghan of his happiness, I will not pursue them because I have quite frankly gotten ahead of myself, but I am not going to backpedal. The British Invasion deserved everything that came to them and I dealt with them. Limmy Monaghan’s actions speak for themselves. He defended their honour. He helped them win. He helped the people who made my children cry flourish. But, if I can, in the limited time on the clock that I have here in Elite Answers Wrestling, I will do whatever it takes to make Limmy Monaghan feel what I feel, to make him feel what my wife and children feel, and I understand that I said that I am not in this for the EAW World Championship, but if I could just stop Monaghan from leaving Road to Redemption with it, that would mean the world to me. But, if I could also leave Road to Redemption with that very same championship, that would be bittersweet. Let’s not get ahead of myself because I have a gargantuan roadblock in my way, but first I must address that Limmy Monaghan is not the only person who feels that way towards me. That other person just so happens to play a special guest at ringside in my match against Solomon Stane on Sunday night. Cammy also played a part in my demise at Wicked Games, but I have given her the benefit of the doubt. I would have given the same reaction if she abruptly tagged me out, so I ruled that out as just human error, and figured that she wasn’t worth my time. However, the more thought that I had given it, Cameron Ella Ava is a piece of garbage who doesn’t know how to keep her promises. Cammy promised me she would help me get rid of The British Invasion, but all she did was distract me, which helped them. She promised me she would do all that knowing she can feel my struggles, yet she has no hesitation to do all of that? Cameron Ella Ava is a bloody liar, and if I were any of you in the crowd, especially you, Solomon Stanae, I wouldn’t believe a single word that comes out of her mouth. I don’t even want to talk about how her reign as EAW Hardcore Champion is nothing special, especially considering the fact that she has subjected herself to mediocre competition, and when she finally challenged herself to someone slightly above mediocrity, she needed me to help her win. As a matter of fact, Cameron Ella Ava owes me one, because if it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t even be in the position she is in right now. But, why would I want someone like Cammy to owe me one when she can’t do shit? She isn’t a competent champion. She isn’t a competent tag team partner. She sure as hell isn’t a competent mother. So, you tell me. Cameron Ella Ava is a liar, and I am happy that someone like you, Solomon Stane, is against her because you are very capable of taking that championship away from her because that EAW Hardcore Championship deserves someone who actually represents hardcore. It should represent someone who isn’t afraid of pulling the trigger. It should represent someone who is willing to go to even the extremest lengths. That isn’t Cameron Ella Ava. Maybe, it was, four years ago, but it isn’t her anymore.
I understand we have somewhat of a history, you and I. I battled you in your rookie season, we went to war for the EAW Unified Tag Team Championships, and now it’s quite different. You’ve reached a level where you could say you have a victory over Methuselah, and I will be honest, I am proud of the man that you have become today, but don’t confuse that kindness for weakness. I don’t have any problem with you, Solomon, because we both want Cameron Ella Ava dead. But, if I may offer two pieces of advice. It’s not going to be the best advice. It won’t be on how to be this and that, and how to handle the duties of a champion and what not. If being the EAW Hardcore Champion is truly what you want. By all means, do it. All you have to do is be yourself. Be the man that beat Methuselah. Be the man that beat Caroline. Channel that same anger, tap into that same aggression, and I assure you, will have no trouble with beating that paper Softcare champion. My second piece of advice. It’s actually quite simple. You don’t even have to do anything. If there is anything that I know about Cameron Ella Ava is that she is a liar and unable to keep promises. Therefore, she promises that she is going to burn you to the ground. She guarantees you that you won’t be the person to take the EAW Hardcore Championship away from her. But, we all know, she even knows, that’s bullshit. She is incapable of representing the Hardcore, and I hope you take that mantle because I will be the first person to shake your hand. The one thing that i want in return from all this unsolicited advice and support, is that you show me the Solomon Stane that you will need to show to beat Cameron Ella Ava.
Can you do that?
What I have gotten to know since my return at Operation: Doomsday, there are some people in this company that didn’t want it to be that way. The British Invasion didn’t want my children to be happy, which in turn, they don’t want me to be happy, and that is why they have been subjected to these past couple of months. When I saw my children weeping in tears, unable to be their happy selves, it became a fatherly instinct to ensure that Daryl, Halsey, and Pandora would get their consequence. Do you think that The British Invasion was happy with me? Was Daryl Kinkade happy being screwed out of the EAW Hardcore Championship? Was Pandora Paisley happy having her hands crushed? Were they happy with being screwed out of the Tag Team Turmoil? Were they happy with being upstaged by Xander Payne week after week? I don’t even need to give you the answer because it was written all over their faces, and that gave me the satisfaction that I needed. If you want me to be happy, to live in solitude, that means you don’t believe that my wife and children should be afforded the same, and I will not accept that. I refuse to let anyone believe that my wife and children should live the life they should. The life that I wasn't given when I was a child. The life I wasn’t given when I was on the road. I don’t get how people are still confused on why I am still here. Isn’t that simple? You don’t want me to be happy. I don’t want you to be happy. My business with The British Invasion, despite Daryl Kinkade being somewhat in my way, is considered over, and I am somewhat content with that. I felt like defeating them at Wicked Games would be the last hoorah, the last spit in the face, the last fuck you, the last middle finger, the last laugh, to really rub it in their face that they shouldn’t have done what they did to my kids. But, there is always a but, Limmy Monaghan and Cameron Ella Ava didn’t want that to happen. They both prevented me from my mission of sapping The British Invasion of every single ounce of happiness they had in their bodies, and you know what that means? If you don’t want me to be happy? You don’t want my kids to be the same. You don’t want my wife to be happy. Therefore, we now have a problem. Your mindset aligns with The British Invasion. You don’t want my wife, my children, myself to be happy, and you must be dealt with accordingly. And that is why Limmy Monaghan deserves everything that is coming to him. I whooped his ass in that room. I minced his brains just last week. And I am going to find tons of satisfaction in the one thing that I only set out to do in Edmonton, and that is do everything in my power to ensure that he doesn’t walk out of that Extreme Elimination Chamber with the EAW World Championship. Limmy Monaghan will obtain his happiness when he builds his utopia, but his erratic decisions brought upon a combination of his ego and stupidity, is going to cost him. It’s fine. He had already made humongous progress in building this utopia, but he messed with the wrong man, because that man is now going to rip every wall down, kick every door down, shatter every window and ceiling, and burn the bloody thing to the ground, because if that utopia is the root of all happiness for Limmy Monaghan, then I refuse to let him see it in its final form.
That, of course, is only possible as long as I am around, and sadly, I won’t be around very long because I made a promise to my wife and children that I will be finished at Road To Redemption. Even if someone else in that match prevents me from robbing Limmy Monaghan of his happiness, I will not pursue them because I have quite frankly gotten ahead of myself, but I am not going to backpedal. The British Invasion deserved everything that came to them and I dealt with them. Limmy Monaghan’s actions speak for themselves. He defended their honour. He helped them win. He helped the people who made my children cry flourish. But, if I can, in the limited time on the clock that I have here in Elite Answers Wrestling, I will do whatever it takes to make Limmy Monaghan feel what I feel, to make him feel what my wife and children feel, and I understand that I said that I am not in this for the EAW World Championship, but if I could just stop Monaghan from leaving Road to Redemption with it, that would mean the world to me. But, if I could also leave Road to Redemption with that very same championship, that would be bittersweet. Let’s not get ahead of myself because I have a gargantuan roadblock in my way, but first I must address that Limmy Monaghan is not the only person who feels that way towards me. That other person just so happens to play a special guest at ringside in my match against Solomon Stane on Sunday night. Cammy also played a part in my demise at Wicked Games, but I have given her the benefit of the doubt. I would have given the same reaction if she abruptly tagged me out, so I ruled that out as just human error, and figured that she wasn’t worth my time. However, the more thought that I had given it, Cameron Ella Ava is a piece of garbage who doesn’t know how to keep her promises. Cammy promised me she would help me get rid of The British Invasion, but all she did was distract me, which helped them. She promised me she would do all that knowing she can feel my struggles, yet she has no hesitation to do all of that? Cameron Ella Ava is a bloody liar, and if I were any of you in the crowd, especially you, Solomon Stanae, I wouldn’t believe a single word that comes out of her mouth. I don’t even want to talk about how her reign as EAW Hardcore Champion is nothing special, especially considering the fact that she has subjected herself to mediocre competition, and when she finally challenged herself to someone slightly above mediocrity, she needed me to help her win. As a matter of fact, Cameron Ella Ava owes me one, because if it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t even be in the position she is in right now. But, why would I want someone like Cammy to owe me one when she can’t do shit? She isn’t a competent champion. She isn’t a competent tag team partner. She sure as hell isn’t a competent mother. So, you tell me. Cameron Ella Ava is a liar, and I am happy that someone like you, Solomon Stane, is against her because you are very capable of taking that championship away from her because that EAW Hardcore Championship deserves someone who actually represents hardcore. It should represent someone who isn’t afraid of pulling the trigger. It should represent someone who is willing to go to even the extremest lengths. That isn’t Cameron Ella Ava. Maybe, it was, four years ago, but it isn’t her anymore.
I understand we have somewhat of a history, you and I. I battled you in your rookie season, we went to war for the EAW Unified Tag Team Championships, and now it’s quite different. You’ve reached a level where you could say you have a victory over Methuselah, and I will be honest, I am proud of the man that you have become today, but don’t confuse that kindness for weakness. I don’t have any problem with you, Solomon, because we both want Cameron Ella Ava dead. But, if I may offer two pieces of advice. It’s not going to be the best advice. It won’t be on how to be this and that, and how to handle the duties of a champion and what not. If being the EAW Hardcore Champion is truly what you want. By all means, do it. All you have to do is be yourself. Be the man that beat Methuselah. Be the man that beat Caroline. Channel that same anger, tap into that same aggression, and I assure you, will have no trouble with beating that paper Softcare champion. My second piece of advice. It’s actually quite simple. You don’t even have to do anything. If there is anything that I know about Cameron Ella Ava is that she is a liar and unable to keep promises. Therefore, she promises that she is going to burn you to the ground. She guarantees you that you won’t be the person to take the EAW Hardcore Championship away from her. But, we all know, she even knows, that’s bullshit. She is incapable of representing the Hardcore, and I hope you take that mantle because I will be the first person to shake your hand. The one thing that i want in return from all this unsolicited advice and support, is that you show me the Solomon Stane that you will need to show to beat Cameron Ella Ava.
Can you do that?
