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First off, I love books.
Romance novels are the best thing. I’m a romantic sap at times. Cheesy romance books are always going to be a huge weakness for me.
Just to be able to indulge myself in a world where I don’t need to worry about my personal, every day struggles. A world where I don’t need to worry about work. I don’t need to worry about this company in particular and I can remove myself from any sort of narratives that they want to force me in so badly. To be able to remove myself from responsibilities and burdens forced upon me is something that I’ve always loved. I love cozying up with my Kindle on the couch and coffee in my hand. It’s such a simple weekend plan for me. Something that I would love to do every day, if I didn’t have to deal with Cameron Ella Ava matters. It’s something that I haven’t done in a while. I can’t do it on car trips. I easily get carsick reading. Normally, I use plane rides as an opportunity to get some sleep due to all of these crazy time differences. It’s something that I love doing, but it’s difficult to have the opportunity to do so. After all, I’m a mother to a toddler and he keeps my days occupied. The same toddler who really hasn’t seen his mother win anything huge since returning to the company. While I don’t plan to indulge anyone in an annoying sob story about needing to win this for my baby boy, I want to win this match for myself and my legacy. At the end of the day, that is what’s most important to me about my work. It’s always been my priority and it hasn’t shifted. This week, I have let people know that I am doing this for myself. I know that there’s assholes like Jack Ripley who want that satisfaction in seeing me get eliminated, but I am not going to allow him to get that satisfaction over me. I will not allow myself to get eliminated over something so stupid. To give Jack Ripley that satisfaction would be one of the worst things to happen in this match up. We shouldn’t be allowing for Jack Ripley to succeed as long as he’s pissing me off. Now, if there is anything that is going to make me happy with that situation, it will be eliminating him, sending him packing from this match and out of my life.
The same thing goes for you, ARIA.
Can we stop with the whole ‘Is The Serpent thing working for you?’ I mean, just because you’d give up when something doesn’t seem to be working for you, doesn’t mean that I am bound to do the same thing. After all, I’m very fucking stubborn and I will not stop with something until I make it work. Besides, it’s more of a shot to people that have called me a ‘snake’ throughout my career because of my relationships. But, of course, people like you, ARIA, are not used to seeing things go on for about two years. You’re used to things working right away. I’m sorry that your attention span is complete ass that you need to see results right away or the whole project is a disaster. Besides, I can’t help it that people want to put me in a box. There are people that continue wanting to see the ‘good’ in Cameron Ella Ava when I want nothing more than for all sides of myself to be seen. I look at the Grand Rampage is a perfect opportunity to be a ‘snake,’ ARIA. I mean, be temporary allies with someone before stabbing them in the back is something that is going to make me quite happy. Yes, I am happy about that tidbit of information coming out. I could careless if people stir away from me now. If anything, they just made me a stronger competitor by leaving me to myself as I look on taking down ALL of the competition by myself. At the same time, I’m aware that pissing me off before Grand Rampage would not be the best route to go with, ARIA. I would hope that you’re smart enough to see the stupid move on your part. But, apparently, you’ll be able to handle whatever gets thrown at your direction. If so, then so be it. I won’t help those that aren’t able to help themselves. I won’t help those who won’t listen to anything that I got to say. I mean, I really don’t give a shit about the whole ‘Absolute Truth’ stuff. As I said earlier in the fucking week, but it seems like listening doesn’t seem to be your strongest suit, but no worries. It’s not a lot of people’s strongest suits either. But, it’s not something that I’ve spent my days worrying about. It’s not like I’m tuning into Showdown to see you ruin things for yourself. I’m not tuning into Showdown to see what you have to say about whatever you’re dealing with at the time. If anything, I tune in for Candice. I tune in and hope that she doesn’t end up doing anything fucking stupid and mess things up for herself. She normally does, but at least, she’s still getting that Disney bag. Something that you could have gotten for yourself - if you would have listened to those that thought the best of you. You really could have saved yourself from some severe heartbreak. If anything, I think that might be the catalyst of your so-called “rock bottom,” but that’s just my opinion, ARIA.
I’m just here to entertain some thoughts. I’m here to make you think about some things that you may have never thought about for a while. I would hope that something said to you this week were eye opening and that you bothered to listen to them. I know, it may or may not be a difficult concept for you, but if you were able to take away something from this week, consider it a ‘W’ in your book.
Romance novels are the best thing. I’m a romantic sap at times. Cheesy romance books are always going to be a huge weakness for me.
Just to be able to indulge myself in a world where I don’t need to worry about my personal, every day struggles. A world where I don’t need to worry about work. I don’t need to worry about this company in particular and I can remove myself from any sort of narratives that they want to force me in so badly. To be able to remove myself from responsibilities and burdens forced upon me is something that I’ve always loved. I love cozying up with my Kindle on the couch and coffee in my hand. It’s such a simple weekend plan for me. Something that I would love to do every day, if I didn’t have to deal with Cameron Ella Ava matters. It’s something that I haven’t done in a while. I can’t do it on car trips. I easily get carsick reading. Normally, I use plane rides as an opportunity to get some sleep due to all of these crazy time differences. It’s something that I love doing, but it’s difficult to have the opportunity to do so. After all, I’m a mother to a toddler and he keeps my days occupied. The same toddler who really hasn’t seen his mother win anything huge since returning to the company. While I don’t plan to indulge anyone in an annoying sob story about needing to win this for my baby boy, I want to win this match for myself and my legacy. At the end of the day, that is what’s most important to me about my work. It’s always been my priority and it hasn’t shifted. This week, I have let people know that I am doing this for myself. I know that there’s assholes like Jack Ripley who want that satisfaction in seeing me get eliminated, but I am not going to allow him to get that satisfaction over me. I will not allow myself to get eliminated over something so stupid. To give Jack Ripley that satisfaction would be one of the worst things to happen in this match up. We shouldn’t be allowing for Jack Ripley to succeed as long as he’s pissing me off. Now, if there is anything that is going to make me happy with that situation, it will be eliminating him, sending him packing from this match and out of my life.
The same thing goes for you, ARIA.
Can we stop with the whole ‘Is The Serpent thing working for you?’ I mean, just because you’d give up when something doesn’t seem to be working for you, doesn’t mean that I am bound to do the same thing. After all, I’m very fucking stubborn and I will not stop with something until I make it work. Besides, it’s more of a shot to people that have called me a ‘snake’ throughout my career because of my relationships. But, of course, people like you, ARIA, are not used to seeing things go on for about two years. You’re used to things working right away. I’m sorry that your attention span is complete ass that you need to see results right away or the whole project is a disaster. Besides, I can’t help it that people want to put me in a box. There are people that continue wanting to see the ‘good’ in Cameron Ella Ava when I want nothing more than for all sides of myself to be seen. I look at the Grand Rampage is a perfect opportunity to be a ‘snake,’ ARIA. I mean, be temporary allies with someone before stabbing them in the back is something that is going to make me quite happy. Yes, I am happy about that tidbit of information coming out. I could careless if people stir away from me now. If anything, they just made me a stronger competitor by leaving me to myself as I look on taking down ALL of the competition by myself. At the same time, I’m aware that pissing me off before Grand Rampage would not be the best route to go with, ARIA. I would hope that you’re smart enough to see the stupid move on your part. But, apparently, you’ll be able to handle whatever gets thrown at your direction. If so, then so be it. I won’t help those that aren’t able to help themselves. I won’t help those who won’t listen to anything that I got to say. I mean, I really don’t give a shit about the whole ‘Absolute Truth’ stuff. As I said earlier in the fucking week, but it seems like listening doesn’t seem to be your strongest suit, but no worries. It’s not a lot of people’s strongest suits either. But, it’s not something that I’ve spent my days worrying about. It’s not like I’m tuning into Showdown to see you ruin things for yourself. I’m not tuning into Showdown to see what you have to say about whatever you’re dealing with at the time. If anything, I tune in for Candice. I tune in and hope that she doesn’t end up doing anything fucking stupid and mess things up for herself. She normally does, but at least, she’s still getting that Disney bag. Something that you could have gotten for yourself - if you would have listened to those that thought the best of you. You really could have saved yourself from some severe heartbreak. If anything, I think that might be the catalyst of your so-called “rock bottom,” but that’s just my opinion, ARIA.
I’m just here to entertain some thoughts. I’m here to make you think about some things that you may have never thought about for a while. I would hope that something said to you this week were eye opening and that you bothered to listen to them. I know, it may or may not be a difficult concept for you, but if you were able to take away something from this week, consider it a ‘W’ in your book.
