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So what if I disrespected your ability, Jay?
So what if anybody else other than me does the same?
Does it mean anything? Does it hold you back in any way?
If you disrespect your own abilities, Jay, then you hold yourself back, if someone thinks any differently about you, when you know yourself better than anybody else, then it means nothing. You can let it get to your head, you can let it penetrate your confidence, but in the end, it all comes back to you disrespecting your own abilities if you let that happen, don’t it? If you care so much about what I thought and what I still think, then you shake yourself up for what isn’t worth it. Jay, I pay no mind to what everybody in this match has said. I entertain them, I give them my counterarguments, I explain to them what I mean and by the week's end I show it, and I’ve done so doubling down. My spirit has not been broken. My soul not shattered. My heart as tough as ever. Jay, I don’t truly care what you say to me, I immerse myself into your world, yes, I relate to you, and I give you my thoughts, but Jay, I don’t feel sorry for anything, I don’t feel like my ideal is flawed, I don’t feel like I’m doing anything wrong. If I were to be proven wrong, it would be in that ring, if I were to think about the what if I would think about it if it becomes a reality. You see, you’ve always been nothing more than me no matter what you’ve done and that’s a reality that’s gonna remain that way for a while longer. You’ve got quite a ways to go, you’ve got quite a lot to learn and there’s a lot more left before you can even start thinking about the World Heavyweight Championship. Jay, this ain’t your match. It can be your breakout, it can be what kickstarts your rise to the top, it can be what starts this journey where maybe along the way you get to defeat me after all the hardship, but right here, right now, this ain’t your match, this ain’t gonna be one you walk away victorious in, this isn’t your moment. That is my guarantee to you, Jay, so if you find salvation in a win, if you think you “need” this win like many others who don’t, then you chose the wrong path. Jay, I do believe in you and I do believe in your growth, you’ve obviously given me a better fight every time we faced but that doesn’t mean you’ve pushed past the expectations I set, because believe me or not my expectations go up with every encounter nonetheless, I expect more and more out of you, I want more and more out of you, because Jay, I always wanted the best for you, sure, you maybe rubbed me the wrong way in our very first encounter, but ever since, Jay, you’ve shown rising potential and that’s not coming to a stop anytime soon, I believe that. You’ve got your doubts, you’ve got your problems, and I’m sure you’ll figure them out along the way because it would be quite a shame for this to all start crumbling now, right? I truly believe the sky is the limit for you but you gotta believe so as well, it’s not as easy as watching someone and wanting to be like them, you don’t know what I went through, you don’t know what I fought to get here, but soon enough, you’ll learn, you’ll see my very path, and you’ll see that same success if you keep going. See Jay, you believe I’ve changed, you believe I even left a part of myself behind and in a way you are right because I’ve had no choice but to change in recent times, but that doesn’t make me any less tenacious, it doesn’t make me any less of a threat and it doesn’t make me any less laser-focused on winning the Grand Rampage match.
Try your most valiant effort, you’ll fail.
But for you, that isn’t the end of the world, and you should realize that.
Your name can very well mean something.
Jon Kelton, I still double down on what I say and what I believe, you cannot change my mind about what I think for you and what I think *of* you. In the end, you can take your path, you can succeed, and I’ll be happy for you, because it isn’t the conclusion that I have a problem with it’s how you think you’re going to get there, sometimes the impossible is okay to accept as just that, sometimes it’s okay realize your chances and while I’m not telling you to abandon all hope, I’m just letting you know how this match usually goes. Kelton, I understand your motivations, I understand what you want to do in the end and I hope you do it, but I’m not going to sit there and let redemption fly by me as I have to sit back for another year and watch somebody else main event in my place, knowing I deserve it. I don’t mind hearing you out, I don’t mind further understanding what you’re here for, I don’t mind having the conversations we’ve had because they’ve been insightful and a good reminder of how far we’ve come (yes, Kelton, I do know where I came from still), but here’s the thing, you’re not just gonna convince me I am any wrong in standing my ground, in believing in what I believe in, in seeing myself for what I truly am, cause I never got this notion you’re pushing, I never got this idea that I’ve “changed” so much… Yes, Bronson Daniels a year ago believed and walked this exact same path but failed way more times than you did and failed even in this exact same match, who’s to say it ain’t the same story here? Who’s to say everything changed in a month? Who’s to say you can alter history? Belief in yourself can only get you so far when you’ve otherwise been unproven. You think I misunderstand you, but truly you misunderstand me, I think you’re making way too big of a deal out of something so irrelevant, something as simple as your suffering and your path changing you. I’ve been betrayed, I’ve had my trust sink down into the void, I’ve seen newfound suffering, with all I’ve gone through, why am I meant to be the same person I was a year ago? Why am I meant to be the same guy who wasn’t yet as refined as now? Why am I meant to still act like I haven’t done what I set out to achieve? I’m here for a goal similar to you, in opposition to yourself, it’s pretty damn imperative that I win this match or else I would have no path to Pain For Pride, and if I have no path to the main event I would have to feel left with no closure until the next opportunity, and the next, and the next. See, Kelton, I’m not being too prideful, I’m not in need of any humbling, and I wish you’d understand that, because I personify greatness while you’re on the cusp of it, and that’s not a difficult point to understand and acknowledge, because you haven’t gained the knowledge I have in a year, you haven’t gained the skillset I have in a year after competing with the absolute best, and you haven’t gotten to the point where you can understand how I feel. “You’ve changed” – change is natural, change is part of the course, change comes in life. Just like you’ve changed since 2022. Just like you’ve changed since the end of Devolution. Kelton, I’ve long atoned for many sins, I’ve long seen the experience you're in and frankly I don’t need to bring myself down to a level I was a year ago. Because I came in third a year ago, I’m not capable of coming in first now, one World Championship reign later? One history-defining moment later? One life lesson later? Kelton, I’m done being patient, I’m done putting myself anywhere below my true level, I’m done emotionally attaching myself to any and everybody, that’s my change, because I’ve had to suffer the same loss you have, the same trust has been betrayed, and I’ve been unhappy with that for a while.
I have to make things right too, you know.
I haven’t done things as right as I could’ve for my World Championship reign.
I learned that the hard way.
Kelton, amid that eternal moment of happiness I found fear, I found anxiety, and I found paranoia, for I feared a death sudden and unrelieving, I’ve dedicated everything to being the champion, I sacrificed everything, I sacrificed activities, I sacrificed life, and while I may not have a woman waiting for me at home, I still have people I love, I still have a life to live, I still am a lot more than just a “wrestler”, and my over dedication to this ended up costing me, because yes, I was at the top of my game, I was insanely happy to be at the top, I was insanely proud of what I was able to do and the fights I’ve been able walk away victorious from, but I didn’t always do the right thing, I didn’t live a “happy” life all-in-all, it was pretty miserable outside the ring, lonelier than it should've been, but then my successor came along, and he showed me it’s possible, he showed me you can be fulfilled in every single capacity of life, he showed me you can be the strongest without a title, you can be the strongest with people to go home to, you can be the strongest without a monotone life. Reign number one is reign number one, in the end, it was a very good reign, but it also shackled me from what I truly wanted, dreaming all my life to have it, I formed a bond too strong, a bond that was never going to work, a cautionary tale, and it didn’t end the way I wanted to. Perhaps, life without it wasn’t death like I thought, but it damn sure was misery. The fact I saw Jake as nothing more than a stepping stone, is probably why we are here, but taking accountability was way too late, or maybe, it wasn’t ever going to even work, all I know is that I’ll forever blame myself for starting this, all while I’ll never truly know the truth, but what I can find is satisfaction in hate, satisfaction in revenge, satisfaction in my bloodlust because this victory can be as petty as it can be fulfilling, all I want at this point is to get him out of my life because I’m done trying with somebody that is clearly not having it and never will, someone who, perhaps, always wanted to do this. Like I said, I’ll never know, all he’s done has been to discredit my work and all the while taking all the praise for himself, so, that’s his problem. He wouldn’t be the first to try to do so, it all falls on extremely deaf ears nonetheless. I want to have the Grand Rampage victory I wasn’t ready to have a year ago. I want the Pain For Pride main event I fumbled. I want my revenge. I want my redemption and to make things right as champion. I want my closure with a conclusion that’s as satisfying as the victory. I want atonement too. Kelton, I’ve been chasing greatness for a while, and in the end, you’ll catch up too, but for me, the path hasn’t been easy. The path hasn’t been favorable. The path isn’t one that would keep me unchanged for a year. You’re right, I grew an ego, I grew a lot more confidence, I grew in expectations, I also grew in issues, I don’t know if there’s a person in this world I’ll ever trust again, not after what Jake’s done, not after how Limmy interpreted our embrace, not after the entire world calls me disingenuous, egotistical, and overconfident.
But that’s been the story of my career. That’s how I’ve always been treated.
Disrespected. Disregarded. Disgraced. Dishonored.
This Sunday, the narrative changes.
So what if anybody else other than me does the same?
Does it mean anything? Does it hold you back in any way?
If you disrespect your own abilities, Jay, then you hold yourself back, if someone thinks any differently about you, when you know yourself better than anybody else, then it means nothing. You can let it get to your head, you can let it penetrate your confidence, but in the end, it all comes back to you disrespecting your own abilities if you let that happen, don’t it? If you care so much about what I thought and what I still think, then you shake yourself up for what isn’t worth it. Jay, I pay no mind to what everybody in this match has said. I entertain them, I give them my counterarguments, I explain to them what I mean and by the week's end I show it, and I’ve done so doubling down. My spirit has not been broken. My soul not shattered. My heart as tough as ever. Jay, I don’t truly care what you say to me, I immerse myself into your world, yes, I relate to you, and I give you my thoughts, but Jay, I don’t feel sorry for anything, I don’t feel like my ideal is flawed, I don’t feel like I’m doing anything wrong. If I were to be proven wrong, it would be in that ring, if I were to think about the what if I would think about it if it becomes a reality. You see, you’ve always been nothing more than me no matter what you’ve done and that’s a reality that’s gonna remain that way for a while longer. You’ve got quite a ways to go, you’ve got quite a lot to learn and there’s a lot more left before you can even start thinking about the World Heavyweight Championship. Jay, this ain’t your match. It can be your breakout, it can be what kickstarts your rise to the top, it can be what starts this journey where maybe along the way you get to defeat me after all the hardship, but right here, right now, this ain’t your match, this ain’t gonna be one you walk away victorious in, this isn’t your moment. That is my guarantee to you, Jay, so if you find salvation in a win, if you think you “need” this win like many others who don’t, then you chose the wrong path. Jay, I do believe in you and I do believe in your growth, you’ve obviously given me a better fight every time we faced but that doesn’t mean you’ve pushed past the expectations I set, because believe me or not my expectations go up with every encounter nonetheless, I expect more and more out of you, I want more and more out of you, because Jay, I always wanted the best for you, sure, you maybe rubbed me the wrong way in our very first encounter, but ever since, Jay, you’ve shown rising potential and that’s not coming to a stop anytime soon, I believe that. You’ve got your doubts, you’ve got your problems, and I’m sure you’ll figure them out along the way because it would be quite a shame for this to all start crumbling now, right? I truly believe the sky is the limit for you but you gotta believe so as well, it’s not as easy as watching someone and wanting to be like them, you don’t know what I went through, you don’t know what I fought to get here, but soon enough, you’ll learn, you’ll see my very path, and you’ll see that same success if you keep going. See Jay, you believe I’ve changed, you believe I even left a part of myself behind and in a way you are right because I’ve had no choice but to change in recent times, but that doesn’t make me any less tenacious, it doesn’t make me any less of a threat and it doesn’t make me any less laser-focused on winning the Grand Rampage match.
Try your most valiant effort, you’ll fail.
But for you, that isn’t the end of the world, and you should realize that.
Your name can very well mean something.
Jon Kelton, I still double down on what I say and what I believe, you cannot change my mind about what I think for you and what I think *of* you. In the end, you can take your path, you can succeed, and I’ll be happy for you, because it isn’t the conclusion that I have a problem with it’s how you think you’re going to get there, sometimes the impossible is okay to accept as just that, sometimes it’s okay realize your chances and while I’m not telling you to abandon all hope, I’m just letting you know how this match usually goes. Kelton, I understand your motivations, I understand what you want to do in the end and I hope you do it, but I’m not going to sit there and let redemption fly by me as I have to sit back for another year and watch somebody else main event in my place, knowing I deserve it. I don’t mind hearing you out, I don’t mind further understanding what you’re here for, I don’t mind having the conversations we’ve had because they’ve been insightful and a good reminder of how far we’ve come (yes, Kelton, I do know where I came from still), but here’s the thing, you’re not just gonna convince me I am any wrong in standing my ground, in believing in what I believe in, in seeing myself for what I truly am, cause I never got this notion you’re pushing, I never got this idea that I’ve “changed” so much… Yes, Bronson Daniels a year ago believed and walked this exact same path but failed way more times than you did and failed even in this exact same match, who’s to say it ain’t the same story here? Who’s to say everything changed in a month? Who’s to say you can alter history? Belief in yourself can only get you so far when you’ve otherwise been unproven. You think I misunderstand you, but truly you misunderstand me, I think you’re making way too big of a deal out of something so irrelevant, something as simple as your suffering and your path changing you. I’ve been betrayed, I’ve had my trust sink down into the void, I’ve seen newfound suffering, with all I’ve gone through, why am I meant to be the same person I was a year ago? Why am I meant to be the same guy who wasn’t yet as refined as now? Why am I meant to still act like I haven’t done what I set out to achieve? I’m here for a goal similar to you, in opposition to yourself, it’s pretty damn imperative that I win this match or else I would have no path to Pain For Pride, and if I have no path to the main event I would have to feel left with no closure until the next opportunity, and the next, and the next. See, Kelton, I’m not being too prideful, I’m not in need of any humbling, and I wish you’d understand that, because I personify greatness while you’re on the cusp of it, and that’s not a difficult point to understand and acknowledge, because you haven’t gained the knowledge I have in a year, you haven’t gained the skillset I have in a year after competing with the absolute best, and you haven’t gotten to the point where you can understand how I feel. “You’ve changed” – change is natural, change is part of the course, change comes in life. Just like you’ve changed since 2022. Just like you’ve changed since the end of Devolution. Kelton, I’ve long atoned for many sins, I’ve long seen the experience you're in and frankly I don’t need to bring myself down to a level I was a year ago. Because I came in third a year ago, I’m not capable of coming in first now, one World Championship reign later? One history-defining moment later? One life lesson later? Kelton, I’m done being patient, I’m done putting myself anywhere below my true level, I’m done emotionally attaching myself to any and everybody, that’s my change, because I’ve had to suffer the same loss you have, the same trust has been betrayed, and I’ve been unhappy with that for a while.
I have to make things right too, you know.
I haven’t done things as right as I could’ve for my World Championship reign.
I learned that the hard way.
Kelton, amid that eternal moment of happiness I found fear, I found anxiety, and I found paranoia, for I feared a death sudden and unrelieving, I’ve dedicated everything to being the champion, I sacrificed everything, I sacrificed activities, I sacrificed life, and while I may not have a woman waiting for me at home, I still have people I love, I still have a life to live, I still am a lot more than just a “wrestler”, and my over dedication to this ended up costing me, because yes, I was at the top of my game, I was insanely happy to be at the top, I was insanely proud of what I was able to do and the fights I’ve been able walk away victorious from, but I didn’t always do the right thing, I didn’t live a “happy” life all-in-all, it was pretty miserable outside the ring, lonelier than it should've been, but then my successor came along, and he showed me it’s possible, he showed me you can be fulfilled in every single capacity of life, he showed me you can be the strongest without a title, you can be the strongest with people to go home to, you can be the strongest without a monotone life. Reign number one is reign number one, in the end, it was a very good reign, but it also shackled me from what I truly wanted, dreaming all my life to have it, I formed a bond too strong, a bond that was never going to work, a cautionary tale, and it didn’t end the way I wanted to. Perhaps, life without it wasn’t death like I thought, but it damn sure was misery. The fact I saw Jake as nothing more than a stepping stone, is probably why we are here, but taking accountability was way too late, or maybe, it wasn’t ever going to even work, all I know is that I’ll forever blame myself for starting this, all while I’ll never truly know the truth, but what I can find is satisfaction in hate, satisfaction in revenge, satisfaction in my bloodlust because this victory can be as petty as it can be fulfilling, all I want at this point is to get him out of my life because I’m done trying with somebody that is clearly not having it and never will, someone who, perhaps, always wanted to do this. Like I said, I’ll never know, all he’s done has been to discredit my work and all the while taking all the praise for himself, so, that’s his problem. He wouldn’t be the first to try to do so, it all falls on extremely deaf ears nonetheless. I want to have the Grand Rampage victory I wasn’t ready to have a year ago. I want the Pain For Pride main event I fumbled. I want my revenge. I want my redemption and to make things right as champion. I want my closure with a conclusion that’s as satisfying as the victory. I want atonement too. Kelton, I’ve been chasing greatness for a while, and in the end, you’ll catch up too, but for me, the path hasn’t been easy. The path hasn’t been favorable. The path isn’t one that would keep me unchanged for a year. You’re right, I grew an ego, I grew a lot more confidence, I grew in expectations, I also grew in issues, I don’t know if there’s a person in this world I’ll ever trust again, not after what Jake’s done, not after how Limmy interpreted our embrace, not after the entire world calls me disingenuous, egotistical, and overconfident.
But that’s been the story of my career. That’s how I’ve always been treated.
Disrespected. Disregarded. Disgraced. Dishonored.
This Sunday, the narrative changes.
