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It’s been a long ass season if I have to be quite honest with you. Well, scratch that, because it’s been a long ass career for me. Because I have told you all about my passion for this industry and I have told yall just how much I’ve been working to get to this level, this stage of my career. Well, now the days are finally coming. Time is ticking on me. I guess Satan finally calling my name 
The truth is, my habits are slowly but surely catching up on me. And it’s the worst timing ever for me, especially at this big moment. Everything has led up to this moment, EVERYTHING. About 2 days away from the Grand Stage, and I have to be honest with you guys, the more time goes by the more worn out I am. I’ve been competing as an elitist nonstop for nearly 2 years at this point and I’ve been competing at a high level and at this point my body is nearly giving up on me. You know, a part of me just feels absolutely fucking exhausted. A part of me is tired, barely breathing, barely holding on to what I love. And it’s a bit uncharacteristic of me. I haven’t even had the passion to just come forward and talk to you guys cos I feel like life has just been sucked out of me. But it is what it is, at this point, I just gotta keep moving, because we’re so close to Reasonable Doubt I just cannot waste this opportunity at all. Because my entire season has led up to me finally getting a World Championship match at SOME POINT, and I never even cared where it was, as long as I just got a world championship match and this is the best opportunity to do so. So with that being said, I still want this as much as possible. But I just have to get through this one hurdle, this one bump on the road, this one mountain that I have to get through and that is Blind Faith, and I as exhausted as I am, as much as I’ve lost matches, lost opportunities, disappointed myself, I promise not to disappoint myself again. Terry, I promise not to disappoint you either, because I know how much this means to you, just off of how long you have been gone for, and how much you may want this Championship opportunity at this stage of your career. I can’t deny it. So I’m gonna make sure that we both win. We both get to enter that cage match, and we’ll see it from there.
But the thing about all of this, even with everything that has happened throughout my entire life, my entire career, I’m not done fighting. This won’t be the last of me, no matter what I’m going to compete. If I have to go out temporarily, I’m going out wit a motherfucking bang. Truth be told, I’m doing everything in my fucking power in order to enter that Cage match because this spirit, the spirit to becoming the Answers World Champion is still inside me, it has never left. And it will never ever leave my soul. This right here, is still my biggest passion, the one thing that I live for, and if I have to leave everything in my life behind in order to succeed then I will. I may be slowly losing life but trust me, I still have faith in myself. I will still get through this hurdle, this obstacle, one of the biggest challenges for me to compete in a tag team match and then proceed to enter the Cage match and have to throw other niggas over the top rope, but opportunities like this require me to go through tough and brutal challenges in order to get there, so I don’t give a fuck, I’m going through all of that, I’m dishing it out, and I’m taking all of the damage, just so I can throw every single one of those niggas off of that cage and finally get what I fucking want. And what I want is glory. I want success. This whole season, I’ve never had success. I don’t care about the great performances that I’ve put on. I don’t care that I can hoop in the ring, because when it’s time to score the last point to end the tiebreaker, I can never seem to do it. I can’t hit the last shot, and it’s something that has been plaguing my entire fucking career. Because I feel like I’m at that stage where I don’t need to prove anything to ANYBODY anymore, because I’ve already proven that I am one of THE best in this ring and I can truly perform at one of the highest levels IMAGINABLE. Now I just need to prove to MYSELF if I am worthy to become a World Champion. And trust me, these times are tough. Because I need to go through these tough times in order to become a champion. I remember veterans telling me that this road isn’t easy and that this road truly determines if I am a true contender to become a champion.. and it really stuck with me. This was a long time ago, months ago, but now I feel as if I am in that moment right now. And now, all I need to confirm to myself is if I am truly ready to become a World Champion in EAW. And my brain may be saying maybe not but my heart is saying that I am truly capable of becoming champion. So you know what? I’m going to go with my heart. Because when I had my most success in this industry, I trusted my heart, and my heart has brought me places that I could have never even fucking dreamed of.
All I can say is.. I hope that things go my way. I have worked so hard for this. I have worked my entire fucking life. And I know that everyone else worked hard for this moment as well. But this shit right here.. it means something to me. Because I have nobody else around me, nobody else to care for me, just me and a fucking ring. So if it’s just me and a ring I promise you, I am going to make the most out of these opportunities, because if I can’t then that is a life WASTED. And one more thing, Terry, I know we can do this. I know that we can win with the right chemistry, because we could potentially be the most dominant team out of every other one here.. so at this point, even if we may have differences, I’ll put my trust in you. And I hope you can put your trust in me. So to my opponents.. and everyone that’ll enter the cage, I’ll see you at Reasonable Doubt.
The truth is, my habits are slowly but surely catching up on me. And it’s the worst timing ever for me, especially at this big moment. Everything has led up to this moment, EVERYTHING. About 2 days away from the Grand Stage, and I have to be honest with you guys, the more time goes by the more worn out I am. I’ve been competing as an elitist nonstop for nearly 2 years at this point and I’ve been competing at a high level and at this point my body is nearly giving up on me. You know, a part of me just feels absolutely fucking exhausted. A part of me is tired, barely breathing, barely holding on to what I love. And it’s a bit uncharacteristic of me. I haven’t even had the passion to just come forward and talk to you guys cos I feel like life has just been sucked out of me. But it is what it is, at this point, I just gotta keep moving, because we’re so close to Reasonable Doubt I just cannot waste this opportunity at all. Because my entire season has led up to me finally getting a World Championship match at SOME POINT, and I never even cared where it was, as long as I just got a world championship match and this is the best opportunity to do so. So with that being said, I still want this as much as possible. But I just have to get through this one hurdle, this one bump on the road, this one mountain that I have to get through and that is Blind Faith, and I as exhausted as I am, as much as I’ve lost matches, lost opportunities, disappointed myself, I promise not to disappoint myself again. Terry, I promise not to disappoint you either, because I know how much this means to you, just off of how long you have been gone for, and how much you may want this Championship opportunity at this stage of your career. I can’t deny it. So I’m gonna make sure that we both win. We both get to enter that cage match, and we’ll see it from there. But the thing about all of this, even with everything that has happened throughout my entire life, my entire career, I’m not done fighting. This won’t be the last of me, no matter what I’m going to compete. If I have to go out temporarily, I’m going out wit a motherfucking bang. Truth be told, I’m doing everything in my fucking power in order to enter that Cage match because this spirit, the spirit to becoming the Answers World Champion is still inside me, it has never left. And it will never ever leave my soul. This right here, is still my biggest passion, the one thing that I live for, and if I have to leave everything in my life behind in order to succeed then I will. I may be slowly losing life but trust me, I still have faith in myself. I will still get through this hurdle, this obstacle, one of the biggest challenges for me to compete in a tag team match and then proceed to enter the Cage match and have to throw other niggas over the top rope, but opportunities like this require me to go through tough and brutal challenges in order to get there, so I don’t give a fuck, I’m going through all of that, I’m dishing it out, and I’m taking all of the damage, just so I can throw every single one of those niggas off of that cage and finally get what I fucking want. And what I want is glory. I want success. This whole season, I’ve never had success. I don’t care about the great performances that I’ve put on. I don’t care that I can hoop in the ring, because when it’s time to score the last point to end the tiebreaker, I can never seem to do it. I can’t hit the last shot, and it’s something that has been plaguing my entire fucking career. Because I feel like I’m at that stage where I don’t need to prove anything to ANYBODY anymore, because I’ve already proven that I am one of THE best in this ring and I can truly perform at one of the highest levels IMAGINABLE. Now I just need to prove to MYSELF if I am worthy to become a World Champion. And trust me, these times are tough. Because I need to go through these tough times in order to become a champion. I remember veterans telling me that this road isn’t easy and that this road truly determines if I am a true contender to become a champion.. and it really stuck with me. This was a long time ago, months ago, but now I feel as if I am in that moment right now. And now, all I need to confirm to myself is if I am truly ready to become a World Champion in EAW. And my brain may be saying maybe not but my heart is saying that I am truly capable of becoming champion. So you know what? I’m going to go with my heart. Because when I had my most success in this industry, I trusted my heart, and my heart has brought me places that I could have never even fucking dreamed of.
All I can say is.. I hope that things go my way. I have worked so hard for this. I have worked my entire fucking life. And I know that everyone else worked hard for this moment as well. But this shit right here.. it means something to me. Because I have nobody else around me, nobody else to care for me, just me and a fucking ring. So if it’s just me and a ring I promise you, I am going to make the most out of these opportunities, because if I can’t then that is a life WASTED. And one more thing, Terry, I know we can do this. I know that we can win with the right chemistry, because we could potentially be the most dominant team out of every other one here.. so at this point, even if we may have differences, I’ll put my trust in you. And I hope you can put your trust in me. So to my opponents.. and everyone that’ll enter the cage, I’ll see you at Reasonable Doubt.
